The most awaited week of this whole pregnancy. According to my doctor this is the week where they become “officially babies.” In short this is the time that if they decide to be born the chances of survival are good. Also is around this time that the probability of Twin to twin transfusion is also low. I can lower my guard a little bit because now what we need to focus on is to keep this pregnancy to full term.
Even though chances of surviving are good the danger of having complications are very high. I have reached the biggest milestone of this pregnancy journey and looking back as I start my 3rd trimester, I wish I could have let my guard down sooner and let it be. I search my photo gallery and there aren’t many pictures of me in the different stages of my first two trimester. I have barely go out or socialize with people because this morning sickness and fatigue really has taken a toll on me. I’m starting my third trimester and I still nauseous if it wasn’t because of my protein shake and pushing myself to eat a little who knows where I would be. If it wasn’t for my mom visits and our talks about the outside world, I literally feel I have lived under a rock.
Fear and trauma has caused that isolation from the world. I think the less people know the less people I will explain later on if something bad happens. Even as I write this I can hear myself with the negativity and the feeling of doom. I have googled about prenatal depression and it actually exists and I think based on the symptoms I have mentioned I think I’m going through it not as severe as many websites or even Wikipedia describe it. What has helped me is that I continue with my therapy sessions. Talking to my therapist has helped me to prepare and understand certain things such as my fear of losing this pregnancy, economics, family dynamics and getting over the shock of having twins.
That’s why I urged you if you or a family member or a friend are going through this please remember there is a lot of help out there. For me it has helped tremendously not just during this time but even before to talk to someone, to speak honestly and clearly of my fears, my worries etc. If you know someone that might have gone through the same I went through please reach out, we might say “we are Ok, thank you!”, the reality is that we are not.
Succesfully Unsuccesful 